Journal
I’ve decided I feel so uncomfortable in my own skin. Like im
trapped in someone elses body. Some times I think how did I get like this. And
how am I ever going to get to a weight id be happy with. I don’t feel
attractive even thou people say I am. My clothes are feeling too tight and I find
myself every day trying to figure out how to hide these rolls and how to make
myself look skinny. It takes a lot of work being fat. Sometimes I dream of how
it would be to not regret eating that last cookie. Or being skinny and never
worrying about gaining weight. Oh how I wish I would have gotten in that line
in heaven to sign up to be skinny. Do you ever think if only I could be
naturally skinny where weight was never an issue. Where you could eat and eat
and never gain a pound. I swear I smell food and gain five pounds. OH biggest
pet peev, when those who are skinnier then you sit and complain about how fat
they are and how they shouldn’t eat the dessert cause there soooo fat. Oh
really well in that case I must be free willy. Seriously do they not notice
that your bigger than them. Hunny I look like I ate two of you and that’s just
my left thigh. So If you’re a curvy girl like myself im sure all these thoughts
have gone throu your mind. So im going to try and get healthy and to start
feeling comfortable in my own skin. Day 1… :$
